ETA 4/11/12: I wrote this post last week and had it up for about a day before taking it down. I've decided to put it back up. I wanted to keep this blog as happy and joyful for Emerson, but it should be truthful. And the truth is I miss her. To the point of heartbreak.
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Last Night...
The details are fuzzy but I remember kissing her cheeks and distinctly remember how soft they felt against my lips. Her hair was so soft under my hands. I also vividly remember her sweet baby smell as I held her tightly.
This wait is so so so hard. I don't know if it's because of that dream and then waking up to the reality that we still have to wait so long to be with her, but I'm just in a dark, sad place today. I'm sitting at work and just can't stop crying. The tears just won't stop.
I miss you so much Emerson.
I pray for your family everyday; everyday its the same request that you and Gene will be united with Emerson. Everyday I wish more than anything for you all to be in the same continent, in the same state, in the same home, in the same room! Please know that you are not alone in this journey. I love you all:)
ReplyDeleteAnya - you are so loved! By us, by your family and friends...by God. And HE has the perfect plan... soon Em will love you even more than any of us. The bond will be so strong for you. Still praying every day for her to come soon - happy and healthy. And my heart breaks too. I love you.
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