This blog is all about Emerson's mini-birthdays! Until she is home with us where we can celebrate her annual bdays, I am going to continue to wish her the happiest mini monthly birthdays!
I try to keep this blog as happy and light as possible because in the end, it truly is a joyous journey. But lately, I just have to say, this wait is getting harder than I ever imagined it could. I thought it was hard before but now it's just out of control! Sometimes I start thinking Emerson's not real. Because to think that she is and that she's been waiting just a week shy of a year for us to come get her... Well, to think that, it simply breaks my heart.
I woke up this morning with faint images of a dream I had last night. I was in a crowded restaurant and looked down at my phone to see that we received new pictures of Emerson! There were three of them. With excitement I tried to look at them but they were all blurry, and I couldn't really make her out in any of them. I was trying to see if she had grown, or what her hair looked like. Or what she was wearing, and what was she doing. But the pictures were too blurry to see any of that. It was super frustrating.
I feel like that right now. I want so badly to see her and be with her. But I just can't make it happen! Aarghhhh.....
{Insert Moment of Composure}
Dear Emerson,
Mommy's sorry to have written such a downer post for your 19th month mini-birthday. I'm just having a moment here. I hope when you read this in the future, you'll get a glimpse of just how much we missed you while you were not with us.
I think I dreamt about receiving pictures of you because we should be getting some new ones of you soon. I can't wait for those. Once I get them, it'll give me a bit more strength to keep on carrying on until we can finally come for you. Pictures of your adorable, sweet face have a way of doing that - giving me strength and hope when nothing else can.
Happy 19 months, our lovely Emerson. We love you!
Mommy & Daddy
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