January Pics

"Oooooh... are those what I think they are?

More of my favorite Gerber snacks?"

"Let me test a few just to make sure..."

"Could someone please open this can for me?

My hands are a bit full..."

Our dearest Emerson,

These pictures of you are ADORABLE! You have grown so much yet again - even from your November pictures! It must be so cold in Korea. Look at your pink cheeks! I wonder if you have gloves? Mommy should have sent you some.

We realized through this set of pictures that we are "seeing" you eat for the very first time!! Even something as minute as seeing you bring your little hand to your cute little mouth means the WORLD to us.

We are thankful for being able to have a tiny glimpse of the day you got your goodies.

We love you and miss you lots and lots!

Love,

Mommy & Daddy

18 Months Old

Emerson turned 18 months last week. I can't get over how fast time flies. Well, fast when it comes to Em and her growth, but yet snail-pace slow when it comes to our wait to bring her home. Such is the adoption journey, I suppose.

Anyway, we were thrilled to receive an update on her yesterday. Some of the highlights were:

- turns two or three pages at a time (Can we say speed reader?!)

- walks upstairs holding rail and both feet on step. (LOL - that's how I've been going up and down the stairs after pulling my muscle).

- scribbles spontaneously (Future Pulitzer prize award winning author? Another Picasso?)

- imitates doing housework and other realistic activities (we're going to have another actress in the house!)

The report ended with her mentioning that she's cheerful but stubborn. LOVE IT. In fact, sounds a little (okay, a lot) like this momma.

We praise God for how well she is doing! We reeeeeaaaaally needed to hear something from Korea after the silence regarding the EP situation this month. As much as the update lifted our spirits, it made me realize I can miss her even more. I want to turn those book pages with her, draw with her, run up and down the stairs with her, play make-believe with her...

I. Just. Want. To. Be. With. Her.

eleven months

The timeline above says today marks 11 months of waiting for our little sunshine.

{Sigh}

Love You Berry Much!

Over the Christmas holidays we received THE best gift possible - a second video of our little sunshine. The video was super short. I think we were spoiled from our first video of her which was about 12 1/2 minutes long. This one was about 4 1/2 minutes long. But it was still 4 minutes of pure joy.

So in our last video when Em was 11 months old, we learned that Em could wink on command. In this recent video, we learned she loves strawberries and dolls. The funny thing is I felt like I always knew this. In fact, how the topic came up was Em's foster sister mentioned that Emerson really enjoyed the snacks we sent in our last care package to her. They were Gerber's Graduates Fruit Strips and Fruit & Veggie Melts - both in berry flavors.

I've already stocked up on a bunch of the Gerber snacks to pack on our trip to Korea (which I'm praying will be sooooon). Also, I haven't been buying many toys for Emerson. But the one thing I've been collecting for her are soft dolls. Especially brunette ones. And guess what foster sister says in the video? That Emerson loves dolls. That she doesn't play with other toys much.

Coincidence? I'd like to think not! It's more of a mama's instinct for her little baby girl, don't you think?

We also learned that her foster family has been playing the video we made for, and that "she watches it with great attention." Hopefully it's helping her familiarize with our faces and voices so she'll recognize us when we meet!

The video we made and sent back in October.

We loved the video of you and miss you so "berry" much, Emerson!

The New Year

As of right now, it's 6:30 in the morning on the first day of 2012 in Korea.

Happy New Year, Emerson!!!!

It indeed will be a very happy, joyous, unbelievable year as 2012 will the year we bring Emerson home. It actually dawned on me earlier today that I made it. Made it through this year. It almost didn't seem possible at one point that I could wait another day, another week, another month until we had Emerson in our arms. Yet here we are - the very last day of 2011.

As this year winds down and I reflect back on the past 10 1/2 months, I am humbled and so thankful to God for bringing Emerson into our lives. And for surrounding us with loving friends and family to lean on. And for all my amazing adoptive mommy friends. And for Emerson's wonderful and loving foster family. I was not myself in many ways as this journey of waiting and waiting took its toll. I never cried so many tears of joy, then frustration, then joy & frustration as I did this year.

My precious Emerson,

Happy New Year my sweet and beautiful daughter.

For you it's already 2012. We did it! We made it through 2011 living on opposite sides of the world. To be honest, I'm not sure if I was living or just somehow getting by. This year was a blur of endless days of waiting for any news and/or pictures of you. I still don't know when in 2012 we'll be able to come for you, but I anticipate it will by April. That's still quite a wait, but at least I know we made it through 2011. And for some reason that revives and refreshes me and makes me feel a teeny bit excited again. I have been trying so hard not to be excited or hopeful for the past several months, but here I am again.

I am EXCITED for the new year and all that's in store for us as a family. You have been through so much, Emerson. You are strong and brave. Please save some of that strength for when we come for you. But once you are with us, we will be strong for you and will take care of you.

2012. It's going to be a huge year for our family! We're coming for you, Emerson!

Loving you with all my heart,

Thank you, Brooke!!

Beautiful custom necklace made by the very talented Brooke Lee.

I carry my little Emerson in my heart always, but now it'll be very obvious she's close to my heart... thanks to a very special necklace made by my friend's daughter, Brooke. It's a photo necklace of none other than my sweet little Emerson and it rests right above my heart. I should also mention Brooke is 13! So much talent and thoughtfulness at such a young age!

Thank you so, so much Brooke! I love my necklace! I love the color of the gray cord and the backing of the photo frame. I can tell you put a lot of thought into it, and that means the world to me. The necklace is quite simply perfect! I will treasure this very special necklace always!! <3

What are the Chances??

Do you see our sweet Emerson?

One of my fellow AP ("adoptive parent") friends went to Korea last month to bring home her adorable son. She was getting ready for her first face-to-face meeting with him, and decided to take some pictures of the agency. She's now back home and settling in. So excited and happy for her!! We got together last week so I could hear all about her amazing trip. She brought her pictures and we were looking at them when all of a sudden, I spot the most precious face in the background of one of them! My friend didn't even know she had taken a picture of Emerson! What are the chances??

I burst into tears seeing Emerson's little face peering down the hallway at the camera. How did she look right at mommy's friend right at that moment? Most of the pictures we've received are of Emerson by herself so it was hard to gauge her size. In the last picture we got of her standing wearing her new shoes, she looked so tall and big. But seeing her sitting in her foster mommy's lap, she still looks small and baby-like. So, so precious!

Thank you Emerson for giving us a chance to see your beautiful precious face. We thank God that you were there the same day as mommy's friend. We love that you looked right at the camera so we could see you. I can't wait to be in that same exact hallway one day soon, holding my breath for that amazing, magical moment when we'll get to see your sweet, sweet face in person for the first time.

Mommy and Daddy

Happy 15 Months!

Happy 15 Months, Emerson!!!

I've been following the weather reports in Seoul and lately it's been sunny one day, then raining and cold the next. I hope on your mini-birthday it was a beautiful and sunny day. I know it's going to start getting pretty downright chilly soon so mama's going to be sending you some warm sweaters and jackets in her next care packages!

Mommy and Daddy **loved** getting pictures of you last month wearing the shoes we sent.

Ever since we learned the shoes we sent back in May were too small for you, I've been a mission to find shoes for you. In the video, you kept reaching for the shoes and foster mom had asked if there were any way to exchange them for a bigger size. That made me so sad to think that you really liked them and even possibly really needed a pair. I was so worried the shoes we sent would be too big/small again, but they look like they fit just right. Whyayyy! ( < ---- combination of Whew + Yayy). If we were able to send bigger packages, I would have sent another pair. I actually had a hard time choosing which pair to send between the two below.

Toddler shoes are just toooo cute!

Happy 15 months, our beautiful Emerson!

I wish mommy could stop time and keep you from growing while we're apart, but that's just her selfish side talking. Truth of the matter is, I love all the updates we get on you and cherish each and every new thing you are doing. The last update said you're eating noodles, bread and cheese and that you love books. You are already starting to take after this mama!

I read up on a 15-month old toddler's development, and apparently one of your favorite words right now is going to be "no." I think that's absolutely adorable, and hopefully foster family will think so, too. ;)

As we head into fall and as the year's end is quickly drawing near, it's clear that we will not be traveling in 2011 to bring you home. It was never truly a possibility, but I held out hope for God's miracle. At some point in this journey I said we'd trust in His perfect timing, and more than ever I hold on to that for comfort.

On your 15th month celebration, I celebrate how much you've grown, your health, and the fact that we are able to send tokens of our love through care packages. I pray every day for that very special day when we will come face to face in person. For now, I feel blessed just seeing your beautiful face in my dreams.

Mommy and daddy love you with all our hearts. Happy 15th months!